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Well i m so excited to go for the first nitez cycling i ever had in my life.  I meet my frez at abt 10 plus and we waited for everyone to be there at abt 11 plus and we set off for our journey from east coast all the way to changi v to had supper later on. 

Well the first half an hr my butt starting to get a big uncomfortable and of cos a bit pain keke.  End up, we ride to a long stretch of road where you can get to see airplane taking off and alighting.  This acutalli my first time to get to see this scene.  The feelin is very different from cyclin in the day compare to nite.  I feel that when cycling in the nitez, it will be more relaxing and cooling and of cos fun…..

surrounding is very quiet and kinda scary as one side you will get to see the plane and on e other side you jus a black dark forest which every one should know tat there is jus some dirty thing goin along the changi places haha . I jus sometime don dare to look towards e forest and also like to keep stickin wif my frez haha.

At last abt 3 plus we arrive at changi v and guess wat???? i see a lot of babo.  They are pretty or shd i say very pretty. slim, good figure, etc haha i should say that they are more pretty than me keke.  well i didnt eat much but jus feel tired as i had work on fri and i work till 6 and rush down from my hse to east coast haha.

Aft having a good chat at changi beach, at around 5 plus we when back to east coast. I remember tat i ride dame dame fast as my butt realli pain and i cannot tahan to sit on it any longer haha.  Also i had stop in some few places to take some sun rise pics so jus enjoy all e picx i had taken below:)

now is 1.50am…. i m sittin in the living alone watchin mtv hits…. well actualli i was listenin to music yet typing this blog…. well suddenly i feel dat tonight is so quiet and jus me alone… suddenly i feel dat i wan a break thru a new life of me…. have this kind of motivation to slim down, buck up my eng and to be a better to show to someone out there that i can do it…. don ever look down on me….. nobody like to be looked down and i know hw dat feels when i was in my pri sch days or sec sch.  well have flu these few days due to my breakdown (cryin non stop) as well as weather is cold…. so people jus tk care of ya self ok and whoever read this do tk care:-0

well jus cant describe hw i feel but jus feel very sad and e feelin which i never feel before. well guess tis time i m realli been hurt that much.  jus broke off wif e guy i love in most in my whole life CURRENTLY haha.  After thinking thru, i think that our pro lies on TRUST and of cos trust again and of cos he misuse e true i gv it to him.  i trust him so much yet end up he lied to me. izzit fair? or shd i say m i e one to make into this current situation? i don know …. well guess i m not impt in his heart anymore or shd i say i think he don love me that much anymore liao. hmmmm feel realli sad cos ever since we patch i got this feeling that i love him even more and wanne cherish him even more but end up wat i get ?? CRAP, LIES, BULL SHIT….. realli feel tired, wanne gv up yet my heart stop me….. one part of me says he is unfaithful to me at first y shd  i care abt  him  BUT  another part of me says i love him and y he can do such things to me??

well guess i go become les lei ba …..

from
sadly angel

hmmmm welll i suddenly feel very borin don know y???? life is wat ??????? or shd i say wat is life???? life is jus study, test, shoppin, watch movie, project, work and like even go anywhere also borin don know y i feel so emptiness. singapore is jus small and no where to go and even there new places to go, it needs $$$$$ .cant afford. currently also worried abt finding jobs as i was goin to grad in aug haiz…….. a lot of things for me to do.  Yet, these things which i m not desire to do….. so izzit borin??? in my life is so monotone…..

haiz even though i have done e wisdom tooth operation once before back in 2 yrs time, but i have forgetten e process and hw painful it was. today i was as nervous as before but when i went into the ops room, was scary becos i saw e needles and was so long haiz and wat worst is i need to inject 4 times and durin e ops my eyes are cover by a green cloth.  In the process, i feel a bit pain when the doc pluck my teeth and i stop e ops and guess wat??? The doc inject 2 more anit pain needles into my mouth and was DAME DAME pain and i cry. haha luckily e green cloth is coverin my eyes as to prevent from the bright light which help me sort of cleanin my tears. haha currently was very happy cos all my wisdom tooth was gone and NO MORE ops for me haha well sad is are my wisdom realli gone?? HAHA

well recently a lot of my frez fall sick haha kinda worry for them haha and of cos needed to remind them to eat medician keke well me also fell sick havin a sore throat keke but is ok i believe that i eat more heaty things will make me feel better haha as i don like to eat medician haha hmmm went to sentosa wif my good frez last sat… omg is fun lo so long never sun tan liao ever since last yr nov hmmm now got sunburn and of cos bein nag by my dad askin me not to tan haha but no choice lei i like to get tan haha.. look more healthy and sporty keke but now don hv time for tannin all this BECOS Exam is comin haha yesh kinda happy at last it is over tis sem is over haha…. aft my exam and jus nice is chinese new year eve can play until siao and don need to think of study liao wahhahahaha

i don know y my life sux….. in my sch don reali have frez in school as i don have a fix class and current class that i m in now which i don realli like them as they are unfriendly, other than this ytd jus qurral wif my bf and for e first time he yell at me and for e first time i reali feel very very pain and decide that to end our r/s that way. Till now i m still feel the pain and don reali have e moood to go to sch but i tel my self that went i m in a r/s whatever happen, i will not let my study to get affected and yup ytd was e worst day of it can you believe it as ytd i was having presentation i M e ONLY one who did not inform to wear formal… what the fuck la i don know y even my parent i also have communication problem with them don know y till tis point i realli feel that i don have e meaning to live. i jus live becos i live in this stupid world realli wanne get out of this world and don like to be lonely but till e end who wont be alone to go to e next world…………………

well very fast after 7 weeks in tis sems, i now havin my so called 3 weeks break as 1st week is my common test week and followin 2 weeks break.  but i don think i also have the mood to holiday lo as 1 week common test need study as i havent study yet haha and e 2 weeks i needa do my project as sch reopen is e due date and hmmm very headache haha my new year eve hw i goin to cele tis year. hmmm i still remember last year new year eve i was alone at home myself crying if i not wrong hmmm cos cant get over o my ex and lots and lots of stuff goin on dat time also.  hmmm tis year will be very different cos i will definately call frez to hang out haha if nt i will try to cele alone lo it okie also nth for me to worry tis year hmmm haha.  now is abt 9 am in the morning on sat keke feel like eatin smth lei haha well tok till here keke

hMM todae im stunned by him i can say. actually reallie wanna say i love him loh. He got me a surprise, and reallie caught me by surprise as well. since tt incident from den i wanne him to be sincere and ask him to show sincere acts before i accept him back. i tell him that we are more than frens but less than bf and gf.. then todae he did something which touched me. I wanted to meet him todae den he keep telling me tt he’s gonna be late so i become quite angry also. den when he come to my house he puts a bag and a slip of paper that says I loves You from head to toe. keke i open up the bag and it contains a toothbrush, hairclip, facial wash, cotton bud and socks. den i was like, urm wads tt??. suddenly he says he loves my fingers as well, den he gave me a kiss on my hand, and took out a ring which engraved our names and e date we first encountered, he put it on for me. haha lame i suppose from there u guys know wad my answer is le ba. i love him.

life is jus so sux till dead….. till now jus one day i still think of him but no choice we are not meant to be together ba. very sad keep cryin e whole nite now jus wanne keep doin work and forget abt everything stuffs i feelin tired and i m sick of it people who know jus ask me ‘hey sharon wat happen to both of you’ i jus say o nth but i realli don wanne took abt it as it reminds me of him and tears maybe will goin to flow out esp he keep messagin me and calling me but i jus too tired to listen or to settle this all problem…. now whenever i go to a place we went before will jus think of e past but i guess after awhile i will be back to normal ba i guess………..